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Wednesday, January 10th, 2007
1:22 pm	Trapped My portal is gone. Not just reset, or scrambled, or even locked, but completely and utterly gone. I'm cut off from my home, stuck here in this erratic place for as long as this wretched "reality hiccup" fluctuation decides to last. Alone. Ilsensine damn it. Current Mood: irate Current Music: "Guardian Angel"- Juno Reactor (Comment on this)
Friday, January 5th, 2007
8:30 pm	A Long Overdue Return ((Hiatus OVER!)) Four months. Oh gods, four months. I was only supposed to be away for about a week. I'm sorry, everyone, I had no idea that I'd been gone this long on your end.... I've missed out on so much. I hope that everyone has been safe and well in the interim. See you soon. [Locked to cross_fortune] Jun, I think I owe you an apology or three. Can we meet in person, please? Current Mood: shocked Current Music: "Strange Days"- Matthew Good Band (Comment on this)
Monday, September 18th, 2006
8:30 am	Hiatus Notice ( Return of the Hiatus ) Current Mood: drained Current Music: "Hurricane"- Faker (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 17th, 2006
4:52 pm	Once again, I'm back after something of a leave of absence. Life has kept me rather busy lately- as soon as I finished handling some financial issues in Sigil, I returned to find half the Nexus is currently flooded, my den unfortunately included. I spent almost all my time the past week or so trying to evacuate my possessions and to fix as much of the water damage as I can. I'm fine, and aside from my copy of Factol's Manifesto, pretty much everything that floated off or got soaked can either be repaired or replaced, so there's no need to worry. I'll be residing completely in my home multiverse until the water levels go back down, but I'll still be visiting the Nexus regularly. I hope I haven't missed out on any crises while I was gone. Have you all been doing well lately? ( Meanwhile, memes from just about everyone ) Current Mood: productive Current Music: "Mari Lwyd"- Carreg Lafar (Comment on this)
Friday, July 21st, 2006
1:10 am	In honor of the big ongoing Silent Hill plot finally heading into the home stretch, and the general awesomeness of all the players involved I've put together almost 30 songs worth of musicspam for you guys. Poke me if any of the links break before you have a chance at them. ( Read more... ) ...and as an added bonus, Andrew DeSalvo sings! Current Mood: busy Current Music: "Mandelbrot Set"- Jonathan Coulton (9 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 5th, 2006
4:17 pm	Alone in its room, Ikanthilossk is for the fourth time in as many Sigilian-time weeks absorbed in the arduous task of itemcraft. Eyes closed in concentration, its fingers and tentacles dance across the reeds and holes of its bone-thriven, eerie melodies echoing off the walls. Preparing the material components had been the easy part- a few words and more than a few coins exchanged with the right merchants had been all that was needed for the purely physical aspects of the medallions to be made to the right specifications. Deciphering the texts and determining how to bridge the gap between the paradigm of their origin and its own had been considerably harder, but with local help and Eileen's detailed notes, but with enough time and effort it was reasonably sure that it knew what was necessary. Actually completing the task, though... that was the hard part. The same intuitive, flexible spellcasting which allowed it to have a chance at replicating something from such a foreign system of spellcasting made the process extremely taxing. There was nothing systemic about making these medallions; practice did nothing to make the effort easier or swifter. Hear the music, paens to spirits and forces which it has never met, hear the music beneath the music, the vibrations shaping into resonances into magic into wards into protections from life-draining things like-but-not-like those which it has known... For once, Ika is glad for its illithid heritage. The practice it's had growing up with the complexities of qualith and the writing system's four-level logic makes the division of attention a little more bearable. Even so, the intensity of concentration required leaves it almost blind and deaf to its surroundings. Nothing exists but song and spell. Feel the magic being worked, know the shape it is, know from the texts the shape it needs to be, the shape which vibrates in medallion-metal, waiting to to be completed by it, hold all these components in your mind at the same time, melding into a harmony which is more felt than heard.. There. Finally, everything comes together and the silent harmonies build to a crescendo, resonances completing each other and echoing one final time through the room as they sink into the waiting pendants, the magic sealed in by tiny fragments of spooled-off soulstuff. Exhausted, Ika leans heavily against a wall to keep from collapsing. No more... there's no time anymore to regain the energy necessary to make more and still be ready to help and to heal when they come back. It places the last of the improvised Saint Medallions in the bundle with the first three, then thumbs its PINpoint, sending them off to the waiting rescuers. Attatched to the medallions is a short note, hastily penned and slightly apologetic. I know it's not many, and they may not even work exactly the same as the originals, but it was the best I could do in the time that I had. I hope that they'll be enough. I'm sorry I can't come with you. I'm sorry that I probably won't even be there to see you off. You are, all of you, braver than anyone has the right to ask you to be. You are, all of you in my thoughts and prayers. Spire's ward preserve you, and believe well. -Ika ((Hey, it's an actual action post on the journal! I'm still drowning in O-Chem too much to participate in RP until at least afternoon tomorrow, but I have enough time participate in plot by a non-thread-ish post like this before I leave for my exam. Many apologies to those of you who I've been neglecting to RP with over the past week or so, both in and out of the big Silent Hill plot... and many thanks to Eileen-mun for helping me figure out a way to get this in before the send-off deadline.)) Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: "Wounded Warsong"- SH4 OST (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 21st, 2006
3:16 pm	[Qualith] * .. / ...- . .-. -.-- / -- -.-- / .. / -.-. ..- ... - --- -.. .. ... / --- - .... . .-. / - --- / ..- -. -.. . .-. ... - .- -. -.. * - .... .. -. -.- / .-- .-. --- -. --. / .--- --- ..- .-. -. .- .-.. / -.-. .- -. / - / .. ... / .--. . --- .--. .-.. . / -... . / -- . * ... --- -- . - .... .. -. --. / .-- .. - .... / .-. .. --. .... - / ..- -. -.. . .-. ... - .- -. -.. / ... .- -.-- .. -. --. / --..-- / / -.. --- -. / - / .- -... .-.. . / . .. - .... . .-. / ..--.. / * .. ... / ...- . .-. -.-- / .-- .-. --- -. --. / .-- .. - .... / -. --- .-- / ..--.. / / / .-- .... .- - / .- -. -.. / ... . . -- / - --- / ..- -. -.. . .-. ... - .- -. -.. / - .... .. ... / .. ... / .-- --- .-. .-. .. ... --- -- . / ..--.. / Current Mood: weird Current Music: fhqwhgads (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 18th, 2006
10:10 pm	Anonymeme Please reply anonymously. Or don't, if you really really want to own your words. 1. One secret about yourself 2. One compliment 3. One non-compliment 4. One love note you have thought of, or actually have written 5. Lyrics to a song 6. How old you are 7. How long we've been friends 8. And a hint to who you are (if you're commenting anonymously) 9. Post this to see what your friends think of you Current Mood: blank Current Music: "Ameno"- Era (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 10th, 2006
4:01 pm	That Long Meme ( Read more... ) Current Music: "Dead Man's Party"- Oingo Boingo (Comment on this)
Monday, May 29th, 2006
11:43 pm	In Over My Head.... Hey... I'd like to apologize to anyone who I worried with that last entry. I don't really know quite why I overreacted so strongly to what happened, I honestly thought that people were going to DIE out there, and it conjured up a lot of bad memories. I'm not usually like this, really, not anymore. He just... brought out the worst in me, I suppose. [Locked to Eileen, the Henrys, and the rest of the Silent Hill goodguy contingent] I don't know. I think on some level, I needed to see that, to see just how powerful and dangerous and cruel he can be- I knew what I'd been told, but I don't think the scope of this really penetrated until then. I still don't fully understand everything that's going on, but I'm aware now of how completely out of my depth this all is. I said that I'd try to protect people as best I could, but... he took a bullet between the eyes at point blank range and didn't even flinch. Even if I threw all of my strongest attacks at him, I don't think it would even be enough to buy time for someone else to act or escape. I can't do this. I got myself involved at the beginning, back when Walter first showed up and I'm in too deep now to pull out entirely, but.. no matter how much I want to see this through to the end, I'm going to have to pull back. If and when everything comes to a culmination, I shouldn't be in the battle. It galls me to admit it, but I'd be nothing but a liability on the front lines, and I'd be putting people in danger by being there. I can help more by providing support and protection and aide than I could by charging in with futile attacks and getting myself messed up physically and mentally. So. On a more useful note, I've been out planewalking for a while- I have those planar coordinates that I promised before. I don't know that they'll do any good at this point since it seems too late now for running away, but I can give them to you, with more details, if you think there might yet be a use for them. And if there's any resources you'd like me to try to gather while I'm still out here, all you have to do is ask. Spire's ward to you all. Current Mood: determined Current Music: "Jesters of the Moon"- FF9 OST (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 28th, 2006
5:29 pm	OOC- Apologies for Absence ((Hey, sorry for disapearing on everyone like that... I sort of succumbed to the cumulative effects of internet drama, things coming up in real life, and discovering that the local Blockbuster had a copy of Silent Hill 4 available for rent. I'm still working on the game(and having plenty of creepy fun doing so), but the former two reasons probably shouldn't be an issue anymore. I start summer classes on Tuesday, but I've got half of every day free Mondays through Thursdays, and no class at all on Fridays and weekends, so I should be able to participate in RPing once again. Edit: I hate the Forest World SO MUCH right now! )) Current Mood: geeky Current Music: "Cradle of Forest"- SH4 OST (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 23rd, 2006
12:30 pm	[locked from red_rooms_child] I couldn't protect him. I- I can't believe- I didn't even try. I just stood there, I just stood there and watched as he hit him and hurt him and threw him into a wall and I did NOTHING. I promised... I promised him... I promised Eileen... I promised myself... and I still did nothing. This is my fault, all my fault, always my fault... Henry and Marissa and Tara and others, so many others, I couldn't help them, didn't help them, and it's as much my fault as if I'd hurt them myself because I could have listened could have got there sooner could have tried harder could have done something more could have... I don't know what I could have done. Something. Anything. Henry, everyone, I'm sorry. There's no apology enough for what I did and what I failed to do, but I'm sorry. And if you don't forgive me, I'll understand. I wouldn't forgive me, either. I wish I could just curl up and die. Current Mood: despair Current Music: "Mad World"- Michael Andrews (Comment on this)
Friday, May 12th, 2006
11:54 pm	[locked from red_rooms_child] Oh gods oh gods oh gods.... Eileen, Henry, other Henry? Remember how I promised to keep a peery eye on Walter and let you know if anything major was going on? You might want to pay attention to the Nexus NOW.. Fiends. Oh gods, why did it have to be fiends? Current Mood: terrified Current Music: "Day of the Demons"- Terminator OST (31 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 7th, 2006
12:02 am	The OOC Meme Since I went crazy tagging everyone else on this, I thought I ought to return the favor now before finals consume my life. Post here if you want to know what Ika thinks of your character, or if you have a question about it that you've never had a chance or reason to ask ICly. Or if you're feeling really adventurous, you can do both! Current Mood: curious Current Music: "In the Air Tonight"- Gregorian Chanting Remix (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 30th, 2006
4:24 pm	Still recovering, but I'm starting to feel considerably better, both physically and emotionally- I have something purposeful to occupy my time with now, and Custodis came by the other day with sushi, and the combined effect of the two is definitely brightening my mood. I believe I'm overdue to repost the latest meme. So... If you comment... 1. I'll respond with something random I like about you. 2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you. I'll tell you what Sigilian philosophical Faction or sect you remind me of. 3. I'll name something we should do together. 4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me (or just me). 5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you. 6. I'll leave you a quote that is somehow appropriate to you. 7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you. 8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal so you can do the same for other people. Current Mood: content Current Music: "Goodnight Demonslayer"- Voltaire (26 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 22nd, 2006
8:47 pm	Rest and Relaxation ....still recuperating from Raccoon City. Wasting my time with silly journal things, as I don't really have the energy for much else right now. ( Gratuitous Memeage. ) Current Mood: drained Current Music: Pachelbel Canon in D (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 12th, 2006
8:16 pm	Inventory Because all the cool people are doing it (and as reference for Eiko-mun and other coordinators)( Raccoon Rescue Inventory Post! ) Current Mood: determined Current Music: "Un Monde Sans Danger"- Code Lyoko (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 21st, 2006
9:40 pm	A departure.... I apologize to any of my friends who I may have concerned with my recent melancholy. I just.. needed some time to find myself, really, and I'm in much better spirits now. I'm posting this to let you know that I'm going to be out of the Nexus for a while, so don't be worried if you don't see me for a while. I've been missing my home and my friends there, though I don't doubt that I'll miss many of you as well if I stay away too long. The timeflow between the Nexus and the Sigil is erratic at best, and visiting other planes from there complicates it further... so I can make no estimates as to how long I'll be away. If you need to reach me for something, I should still be able to respond to any replies here, but I'll be largely out of the loop until I return. To Custodis: I know I promised you that I'd show you Sigil one day, but this time I think I ought to go alone. Partially because this is something I've been needing, and partially... well, you'll just have to wait and see. To Gale: It looks as if the discussion we'd planned is going to have to be delayed for a while... though with all that's been going on lately, that may be for the better. You seem to have more than your fair share of problems recently. I hope things improve for you soon. To Some: Similarly, if you decide to take me up on my offer to meet, it may be some time before I'm available. In the meantime, if you see this message, I encourage you to speak to Gale. I think you and he might be able to help each other. To Walter: I'm glad that you were able to find your Eileen again, that day... I'm sorry for slipping off without saying goodbye. I hope you've been doing well in the meantime. Spire's ward to you and her both... To Kevin: I'm still available for healing, if you and your friends are still in need. If you like, I can easily stop by before leaving, if you can help me find the place. Take care, all of you, and believe well. Current Mood: optimistic Current Music: "Open Your Heart"- .hack//SIGN (Comment on this)
Friday, March 17th, 2006
2:36 pm	Tarot Meme ( Why I shouldn't try to cheer myself up with memes ) Even though I know the results are generated randomly, that's... just a bit too accurate for comfort. Current Mood: unnerved Current Music: "Pure Heart"- Rikki (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 14th, 2006
9:04 pm	"Sick in th'head somethin' fierce" ( Cut for woe ) I don't think I want to talk to people right now. Current Mood: melancholy Current Music: "Nemo"- Nightwish (Comment on this)